Do you ever feel like your growing up really fast in such a short period of time? That's exactly how I feel right now.  The amount of responsibility I have been displaying is abnormal. I've always been the type to sit on my ass then be active- my how the tables have turned.

All joking aside i think it has a lot to do with my acquaintances. Being the youngest of four I have always gotten along with older people as oppose to people in my age bracket. Looking at all of my acquaintances/friends (25-36) I am seeing a very basic trend. No offense to them, they are happy and satisfied but very few suffer from actual ambition. Sure they have great paying jobs but they're still doing the same shit they were doing five years prior- sitting on their couch getting high and blowing their money on shows and bars. It's fun and all but...I quit smoking weed when I was 19/20 and I've never been too reliant on liquor for a good time. I find myself spending less time with people because of my writing and they don't seem to care. Then again why should they?

A couple of nights ago I dropped by my sisters pad to watch a 70's puppet porn by the guy who did Deep throat, It's called Let my Puppets Come after about a half hour I disappeared from the pack with another. We had been playing around with the idea of making movies together (him being a film maker and me being a writer). Finally we set a date to brainstorm and get the ball rolling. Excited and giddy over the new project I confessed to him that I felt I had been sitting on my ass for 5 years and have really been trying to apply myself. He laughed and said "Honey, try 9 years!"

I then reflected on the idea that: At that moment the youngest person (23) in the house and the oldest(32) were physically making the decision to break from the pack and do something with their lives while everyone else sat on the couch watching a real woman throw fruit at a puppet man wearing her underwear.
 

So, the Jonas Brothers have totally been under my radar because, lets face it, shitty music and not so hot boys don't really catch my attention. I watched the South Park opener that featured a spoof on the guys . They even had this scene where they were at a concert and all "you girls want them to cover you in their hot white foam?" and the audience is made up of babies and they spray them with foam. The whole joke was obviously about selling sex to little girls.

Well, needless to say, I laughed my ass of about it until yesterday. My friend, Natan brought it up and I laughed and then he told me they actually spray girls with foam at the concerts. I stopped laughing and he showed me a you tube video of them ACTUALLY spraying little girls with foam!

now they have my attention...and not the good kind.

( What is their fucking deal, man!?!?! )

So, I've been waiting for this day for a while. I finally got a great work out with J...not that kind (get your mind outta the gutter) and I get to spend a full day with my #1.  I know these "my life is so perfect" posts can get really annoying so I'll keep it short. I'm already starting to see results in the weight loss department which has me kind of worried- I think I'm depriving myself of too many Calories.

I got into an amazing argument with some girl in one of my forums that lasted the week. Usually I'm the type to just let it go and walk away but seriously, this was gold and I couldn't resist. #1 rule to debating: Know your argument. So many kids take offense to things that they don't understand and instead of stopping and thinking about why they feel that way, they throw straight word vomit at you.  I just want to shake them and say "will you listen to yourself? It's embarrassing!

One of my not so nice traits is that I can be very hard on people who take themselves too seriously. I have a field day at anime conventions. Now, I know that sounds mean because, for a lot of those kids, the conventions are the only places where they feel they fit in but seriously, if your 6'4 white kid wearing a rice hat with silver hair you need to be able to laugh at yourself. Don't get me wrong- I don't pick on just anybody- I choose the ones who have the obnoxious/pretentious combo going. You know- the ones who pretend they're gods among the nerd community. Once in while we'll fuck with someone who knows how to bite back and walk away with a new friend- which is how I've made most of my friends from the conventions.

-Stack of books in the corner that I have to read?  6
-Novel that needs writing? 1
-Comics that need to be bought? 17
-Video Games that need to be played? 4
-Letters that need to be written? 3

For the first time in my life I'm putting fun aside for work. I haven't touched J since Saturday....that is just wrong. I am getting more hours at work but at what cost....at what cost *shaking fists to the heavens* We have been making more time for each other- it's just at 7am when we run together and who wants sex at 7am? I bet there's a bunch of people who would disagree but J and I aren't the most sensual morning people. Nothing says passion like tinny morning breath and eye boogies. When we first started dating we could, but when your in a new relationship its amazing how we cover our bases. I don't even think J knew I grew leg hair until our 3rd month together- I was like a ninja with that shit.

We both let ourselves go over the years and are working at getting it back. I actually bought a pair of running shoes today >.<

Once in a while we are struck with something so fabulous it practically punches you in the face. Miss Tandi Iman Dupree did that for me this morning when I witnessed her performance at the Miss Black America pageant in 2001.

Ladies and Gentlemen, Never in my life have I seen a drag show so spectacular it inspired me to the core!

Be Amazed


Unfortunately, I just discovered that Miss Dupree has passed on- but few have been able to make quite an entrance. She will be missed.

Does anyone remember that little incident back in the fall of '08, in that little southern Californian community where the president of the Chaffey Community Republican Women Federated sent out that little fake food stamp aka Obama Buck.  Well, I do! And I also remember the bullshit excuse aka "statement" the family issued when the rest of the country looked at them like "What the hell is wrong with y'all?"

I rehash this for a purpose. It's all very similar to the recent NYPost political cartoon depicting an image that isn't as over the top but equally offensive. Their response basically consisted of Sorry you took it the wrong way, we didn't mean it like that.  Let me ask something, if you didn't mean it the way it was perceived...why choose a chimp? Why not another animal or perhaps an inanimate object? The truth is that it was meant to be racially perceived and the editor is not sorry for it. Just like the shamful Obama Bucks- if it wasn't meant to be racist why choose those particular images? Because it was meant to sting and there are still people in this country who are throwing hissy fits because it's getting harder and harder to convince their children that there are groups of people lesser than them.

Speaking of which- New from the GOP!  Republican national Chairman Michael S. Steele want's to give the Republican party a "hip-hop" makeover.
In his ACTUAL words:
“We need messengers to really capture that region - young, Hispanic, black, a cross section ... We want to convey that the modern-day GOP looks like the conservative party that stands on principles. But we want to apply them to urban-suburban hip-hop settings.”

also:
“we need to uptick our image with everyone, including one-armed midgets.”

what the fuck... Way to be a tool, Steele- and an old one at that.

What aren't these people getting?! Obama didn't win the presidency by turning his hat sideways and throwing out a couple of "yo yo yo"s.

It's a little something called  INTEGRITY- get it!

Believe me when I say that this sudden burst is not in reflection of black history month. I'm one of the many who believe that every month should be black history month.  But I am still surprised that my head hasn't exploded from all the ignorance.

Okay, so you know the movie Love Com? Do you remember the show that the weird older sister watched? I could totally go on that show right now!

If you don't know what I'm talking about: Love Com (Lovely Complex) is an awesome Japanese film based off the famous Manga about a super tall girl and a super short boy who can't get significant others because of their heights and they end up falling for each other. Within the film the lead girl's creepy older sister steals her TV to watch a game show where girls go on an rave about their unimpressive boyfriends and perform a dance afterwords. It's retarded and I would totally do it right now.

Long story short, J has been pushing all the right buttons as of late and I absolutely adore him right now. It's a bit over the top and I'm sure people are tired of hering about him but he's my favorite person in the world and I can't help it >.<

Believe me, Valintines day definitly didn't bring this on. We don't even celebrate it (that's what anniversaries are for).

The one consern that I have, about being in a long relationship, is letting myself go. I have put on a little weight this winter and haven't been taking much pride in my appearance (just being lazy) and I guess some sort of switch was flipped and I had a moment the other day. I looked in the mirror and was appauled at what I saw so I plucked, curled, and powedered until I loved what I saw. I need to start working out again and my wordrobe has become very androgynous due to all the bike riding I did over the summer and I want some freaking dresses.

J's sick now and I'm going to stay home and take care of him. He's one of those guys whose only medicine is "Man up" and he's been sick for two weeks. Recently he's been waking up to these horrible coughing fits so I'm taking over and getting him healthy.  

Today was suppose to be my writing fest but just turned into a music fest. Once I realized I wasn't getting anything done at the computer I got up to clean the house but that turned into me dancing around the house with the new Ace of Base single on repeat.

Oh yes, you read correctly- Ace of freaking Base- color me old school. They are rumored to have a new album coming out this year and have set to work remixing their old classics. Well, it worked and the buzz is going.  I Have Wheel of Fortune 2009 and it is sweet! Unfortunately it doesn't match the mood to my story.   The setting is very quiet and rural: the tone is calm and nature driven so electronic dance music just doesn't work. I need to listen to more Air or Vivaldi right now.  Plus I'm so OCD I find it practically impossible to write out of order and this will by first attempt at doing so (anything to get this book finished).

I got an amazing vision last night of what to wear to see Lady Gaga this March ; D You can't see an act like Lady Gaga dressed in lame fan girl jeans and T-shirts. No I'm going fully loaded with Fabulous. But I will not start a rough sketch until I write for at least a few hours.

I feel like I'm in high school again, geez. The majority of all our problems arise from caring about what other people think. Stop it! You are who you are and the sooner you accept it the better off you'll be. It's, like, the golden rule of existence- If you don't love yourself, how can you expect others to? I just don't understand whats so difficult about it.

The last couple of weeks have been some of those depressing self-realization kinds. But I'm over it now- I've seen the light at the end of the tunnel and I would describe my feelings as more relief than happy.  Now I've been hearing about all these messed up things happening to people- Like , I just heard about some 12 year old girls in a small town got into a fight (we'll call them Girl A and girl B) girl B and her mother deside to create a myface page for some imaginary guy to fall in love with girl A. Girl A totally falls for it (because who would suspect a fake identity would be created on myface by some vindicive cunts mother?) and girl B's mom up and desides to seal it telling (as the fake guy) girl A that he hates her and everybody hates her. Girl A is 12 so in her mind her life is over. Girl A's mom is a working woman and tells her daughter to step away from the computer until she gets home. Girl A's mom comes home to find Girl A dead hanging in the closet.

wtf right?

So word gets around because its a small town and everybody knows what girl B and mother has done but the courts don't know how to tackle it because there is no law....So the town goes old school and shuns girl B and family and Girl A's family lights their pool table in girls B's yard.
wtf ? wtf ! This is why I think people should have to take a test and get a lisence to procretate. Seriously, you need a lisence to fish, why not for babys? The test would be very basic and one of the questions would be : I am willing to get way too involved in my 12 year old daughters politics to:
A) rehash and live out any drama I encountered and middle school because I don't let things go.
B) go the distance in all her endeavores and make all of her enemies suffer. Bring on the suicides!!!!
C) All of the above
D) None of the above, Whats wrong with you? What grown person in their right mind would do such a thing? Who created this test? I demand to see you're manager.

If you fail the test-BOOM- they sterilize you right there...oh, a girl can dream

-That sounds so indecent: stimulus package- It's like a sex toy or code for a penis....

        Either way, I want it and the republican party is giving Obama a hard time for the sake of giving him a hard time. I am neither liberal or conservative but a Rationalist and I think the Republican party is acting like a bunch of babies. Not only is the party on the edge of collapsing but the last thing they should do is nip at ankles while already on the ground.

I, of course, just want to buy lots and lots of fabric and make lots and lots of fabulous dresses. Haven't had much time to design so I'll take a stab at it tonight- once I clean up ground zero that is my work desk.

A few of my favorite Manga/Comic series have ended this week =(

So a few farewells to a couple of fantastic series that went well below radar:

After School Nightmare: (Manga) Was awesome in the sense that it tackled the always daring subject of gender confusion in a youth-based social setting. I received questionable glances and raised eye brows from my co-workers when I picked up the first volume.  Although it often left me cringing I was continuously absorbed with the lives of these incredibly damaged characters. It ended on a strong and satisfactory note which cannot be said about most the titles on the shelves to date. This isn't a series for everyone but if you're looking for something new and innovative from the medium I strongly recommend it.

Gon: (Manga) Is actually a bit older in the market but finally picked up by CMX back in 2007. The 7th volume has finally wrapped up the series about a little dinosaur with big personality. I like to refer to Gon as a bad ass version of  Owly. With elaborate, beautiful, artwork and zero dialogue the series of short stories follows Gon and his adventures with other animals in the wild. Its true to the realities of life, death, and the humor within. I was always sad to see this series collecting dust on the stands because I place it right next to Berserk and Battle Royale on my bookcase of greatness.

I Kill Giants: (Comic) I don't like to waste my time on single issues but now and again one comes along that I cant help but reach for. I Kill Giants  was that series for me in 2008. The unique cover art practically jumped for my attention but the story was far more grand than I coud have hoped. It kept me guessing without wearing me down and making me dread the mini-investment (which is a lot to say for an American comic series). It's an honest and fascinating look at a little girl coping with a family tragedy. I recommend this to anyone with a beating heart and lungs =P

I hope this post doesn't come off as too pretentious- but I am very passionate about my weekly addiction and I encourage people to pick it up. It's better than heroin!

I don't have to many of these because I am not easy to anger.....and this is an angry rant....

To the Socially retarded and/or Emo kid,
       What is your fucking deal?! Everyone has awkward social moments but we laugh it off and get back in there....not you! No, you just fucking stand there and stare-wtf.  Who taught you how to speak to people?! It's obnoxiouse and embarassibng! Quit it!

      Listen, whatever it is you're trying to appear as (and you are trying) It's not cute, it's not cool and it doesn't make you look mysterious......unless your'e incredibly attractive but chances are your not. it just looks like you care way too fucking much about what others think. I have a very high tolerance for this type of behavior- it's mandatory for my line of work- and of all the people I deal with some of you just wont budge!

    On New Years- I went to a party and there was this guy who stood by the door for over an hour waiting for his friend so they could leave. His friend was awesome. Everybody was getting drunk and ringing in the New year and this guy just stood by the door sulking. So a friend and I tried talking to him and he was just not having it.  I couldn't outright ask him to leave because he looked like one of those crazy white kids that would follow you home and rape your pets. But I was curiouse as to why he didn't go? He could have hopped a bus or walked to the train (the service was running late that night) or he coould have taken a cab. The point is that he wanted to be miserable and make others miserable. A grown ass man was behaving like that  and in public!. A GROWN ASS MAN!

So I say to you (I don't ask) If you want attention and I know you do, take some fucking Irish step dancing lessons or do something to make you an interesting person!  If you like anime/comics/manga/scifi- and your socially retarded (which can happen a lot) you already have something interesting to your person. So I'm going to give you a step by step guide to hodling a normal conversation:
If someone approches you and introduces themselves feel free to take initiative
1- ask them something about themselves (What do you do for a living?  Where did you get those awesome shoes? etc)
2-  Listen to their response. It will help you with step 3
3- Politley respond with what they said. This could be in the form of a statment or a question (Interror desiign? Thats very interesting, are you apart of a firm?)
4- Listen to their response- at this point they will ask you about yourself....unless they're as socially retarded as you are and at that point you can both sit in a corner and be stupid together.

If someone asks you a question please refrain from one word answers- this will end the conversation quickly and make you look like 14 year old at which point you have no buisness being there becasue it's a school night. You want to respond to people with poise and intrigue- not with baggage and bullshit. NOw, I understand not everyone is going to get along- but 9 times out of 10 You are the one responsable for your social life not other people- so do yourself and all of us a fucking favor- learn how to speak.


                                                                                                                                                                                                Sincearly,
                                                                                                                                                                                                          Angela

         So, I was getting my usual snacks at 711 yesterday and I see, on the DVD rack, a copy of Lady in the Water for 6.99. I had to buy it.  Even though it only got a 27% on rotten Tomatoes and was described at "contrived, pretentious, and rather silly"- I thoroughly enjoyed this film. M. Night Shyamalan is one of those film makers that whether you love or hate you keep coming back for more. He is also one of the few directors in which my opinion strongly varies against the general public. For example: I hated The 6th Sense yet everyone and their mother loved it. Let me rephrase that...My hatred for the film wasn't conceived until after the critical acclaim it received. Also: Everyone hated Unbreakable and The Village and I loved them. The same goes for Lady in the Water.

Watching it last night with J only cemented my thoughts.

Contrived? sure, Pretentious? I wouldn't go that far. No, there is a very fine line between being pretentious and being Passionate but it is there and many people- film critics especially- tend to blur the two. The truth is that Shyamalan is one of those story tellers one must take literally in order to experience the vision properly. I think that, when it comes to film, everything is taken with a grain of salt and rewards go to those who catch us off guard in a pleasing manner. Night is not one of those people. He catches us off guard in a way that forces us to look at ourselves in a light that we aren't used to. This confuses many people and One thing is certain: People do not like to be confused.

The reason why I defend this movie and continue to speak highly of it (even 2 years after its release) has a lot to do with the general response to it. One of the major messages of the film, apart from being true to yourself, was letting go of your inhibitions and believing in something fantastical. The story deals with so many mundane characters who should be denying the remarkable(and plausibly imaginary) but find themselves not only unrestrained to it but wanting it. It's as if the general public are subconsciously reacting as they feel the actually characters should have. So it has been cast aside and called "silly and pretentious" When, In actuality, I think if the opportunity presented itself- Our inner child would be clawing for the opportunity to believe in magic again.

That is precisely what the film is, a modern fairy tale no more no less and it is my opinion that it should be handled as such.

I'm totally one of those "in the moment" types so please bear with me.

It seems that most people find it tedious to obtain one hobby and/or monopolize a certain set of skills. I, for example, find it much more enjoyable to fill up my time with as much variety in acts as possible.

My Current Favs:
Goal: Buy some tap shoes and learn how to use them.
Reads: The Partly  Cloudy Patriot - Sarah Vowell,
Comic/Manga series: Madame Xanadu (Vertigo), High School Debut (Shojo Beat)
Movies: Ray Harryhousen films, Super Bad Sci- Fi
TV Musts: Daily Show/Colbert, The Soup, Girls next door, How its Made
Music: Electronic Disco
Look: Solid tones, Layers, Retro pin-up hair styles
Things to do: Be girly with Magnus_417 and Skylark29,
Project: Writing a novel
Obsession: Nail Polish, A&W Rootbeer

So tell me, What are YOUR current goals/reads/movies/etc.? 

It starts...



Upon my usual runway updates I stumbled upon the most delicious new trend for spring 2009~ no pants. Just recently I was discussing the ideas of a pant-less season with my sister, a topic brought on by the fabulous Lady Ga Ga.

I'm thinking...YES! ~ My waist and ass will only look this good for so long = P

Also there has been a noticeable evolution of fashion into the futuristic age: Simplistic patterns with intense structure. Both Chanel and Balenciaga has taken it to a fascinating level this season.

It was fun, it was eventful, it was loud and now its over~ goodbye, so long, I'm done.

Now I'm faced with the wonderful prospects of 2009, finally. And what, may you ask, is going to be so wonderful about this year? Well, for one thing I have the mistakes of '08 as a fabulous guideline for this year~ I now know not to rely on anyone but myself no matter how closely related you are! Don't move into a new apartment with the roommates that got you kicked out of the last one. Extinguish those ridiculous ideas of dressing the entire Halloween party as soon as they arise...no matter how good of a seamstress you are one only has two arms. And for god sakes keep J away from those Rockstar energy drinks- they only screwed up his sleep cycle and gave him a gut- NOW you have to put him on a diet and no one will be happy during that!

A bunch of positives came out of '08 for my guideline but the negatives are just so much more fun to talk about >.<

Is it just me or does Christmas seem like it happened months ago?! Not that it's a bad thing, I just find it funny that December was the most stressed out month of the year for me and now that it's January I've thrown it all behind me like a repressed memory. Perhaps it's also in part that I'm faced with my new writing project. Only one thing stands between me and the absolute glory of completing a novel...my messy messy apartment. Even now I keep pausing to turn and glare at the abomination that is my living room. The only reasoning I can summon is because I have too much fun writing that it doesn't feel like work- therefore a guilt and pinch of distain will hover over my head until I take care of my everyday reponsabilities (that I have put off to every other month) *lying face down on desk in defeat* Tomorrow...I tell myself, knowing full well that Tomorrow means "next Thursday"

Happy New Year...It'll be a good one ; )